Main shayad nai badla.

"Ek din yeh sab kuch ni rehna. Sab apne apne raste nikal jayenge! Duniya de jhamele, naukri dhoondho, paise kamaao, ghar basaao, te life de ishaaron pe nachte jaao. College de gate de is tarah hum lyf ko nachaate hain, te dooji tarah lyf humko nachaati hai." - DJ, from RDB.

Very true!
Almost ek year hone waala hai..I'd moved on a long time back. I'd left all those sentiyaape boht der pehle..that sentiyaapa was taken over by sadness of life, of living alone, of having no work but still earning a lot of money, and pata nai kya kya. Sometimes i wonder, "Why am i alive? For whom?"

Kal main college ko leke fir se senti ho gaya. There are still some people left, not great in numbers now, jinse duur hone ka mann ni karta. Kal use bye kehte time i realized ki mujhse abhi bhi bye ni bola jaata.

Aadmi ka basic character kabhi change ni hota. Main shayad nai badla..kahin kho gaya hoon bas.

-- Hulchul Senti.

I never felt this much bored in college.
I came at a very wrong time.
I don't want to come back to this place again.

2 days se bas ye hi mere mind pe hai.
:|

Random thoughts at 12.36 AM

I’m going to leave hyderabad on the evening of 10^th, the day after tomorrow. I’ll return on 2^nd may. Its been almost 100 days since the last time I came to this place from home. Nd since then, I was waiting for this month to come. It is this ‘Customer Focus Training’, which I’d be going for!

For the last 20 days (excluding today), I’d been planning of visiting PEC and NCR. Wahaan pe log rehte hain! Log, jinhe I know! Log, who know me!

But suddenly something happened. NCR ka toh abhi kuch pata hi nai. Meri PEC jaane mein phat rahi hai. I don’t know why! Would I find the same benehomie as before?  That adrenaline again? Would I be able to connect with them? Would I like the clock to stop doing tick-tick-tick this time? What would I talk to them? Is anything there, which I'd be enjoying while having conversation with them? Or vice-versa? These are few of the questions which have completely overtaken my mind.

I don’t know the answer. I don’t even know why I’m thinking like this.

They say, stop thinking. But how? Is that possible to control the brain not to think about such things?

Is it? Really?

A lot would be happening in the coming month.

Rodeja ki intern would have reached to a new level. Chopda Switzerland ke tour ke baad fresh ekdum! Hakeem ka mind never stops working. Videsh mein rehne waale logon ki lives mein, jo sad hue pade hain, i wish fir se colors aa jaaye! Raine, help me! Swami ka solitude I wish jaldi end ho jaaye. Jinki calls aayi thi, I wish convert ho jaaye. Jo log pareshan hain, khatam kar do unki pareshaaniyan, Bhagwaan! Aur jo log forcefully khush rehne ki fight maarte hain, unhe natural khushi de dijiye! Wo boht hi pyaare log hain!!

Kuch bhi likh diya..as always.

This blog has become a scrap now. I've become tired of writing sad posts. It might be the beginning of the end of this blog.