I never felt this much bored in college.
I came at a very wrong time.
I don't want to come back to this place again.

2 days se bas ye hi mere mind pe hai.
:|

Random thoughts at 12.36 AM

I’m going to leave hyderabad on the evening of 10^th, the day after tomorrow. I’ll return on 2^nd may. Its been almost 100 days since the last time I came to this place from home. Nd since then, I was waiting for this month to come. It is this ‘Customer Focus Training’, which I’d be going for!

For the last 20 days (excluding today), I’d been planning of visiting PEC and NCR. Wahaan pe log rehte hain! Log, jinhe I know! Log, who know me!

But suddenly something happened. NCR ka toh abhi kuch pata hi nai. Meri PEC jaane mein phat rahi hai. I don’t know why! Would I find the same benehomie as before?  That adrenaline again? Would I be able to connect with them? Would I like the clock to stop doing tick-tick-tick this time? What would I talk to them? Is anything there, which I'd be enjoying while having conversation with them? Or vice-versa? These are few of the questions which have completely overtaken my mind.

I don’t know the answer. I don’t even know why I’m thinking like this.

They say, stop thinking. But how? Is that possible to control the brain not to think about such things?

Is it? Really?

A lot would be happening in the coming month.

Rodeja ki intern would have reached to a new level. Chopda Switzerland ke tour ke baad fresh ekdum! Hakeem ka mind never stops working. Videsh mein rehne waale logon ki lives mein, jo sad hue pade hain, i wish fir se colors aa jaaye! Raine, help me! Swami ka solitude I wish jaldi end ho jaaye. Jinki calls aayi thi, I wish convert ho jaaye. Jo log pareshan hain, khatam kar do unki pareshaaniyan, Bhagwaan! Aur jo log forcefully khush rehne ki fight maarte hain, unhe natural khushi de dijiye! Wo boht hi pyaare log hain!!

Kuch bhi likh diya..as always.

This blog has become a scrap now. I've become tired of writing sad posts. It might be the beginning of the end of this blog.

No title.

I was at zero.

Somebody came and gave me one news. That news made me finding myself moving on the positive side of the number line.
I could not believe that was true! I’d some apprehensions.

After sometime, I confirmed the fears which I had. Since I’m jinxed, they came out to be true. Then I found myself crossing the zero figure and heading towards the greater negative side of the number line.

It gave a boost to my belief that happiness and sadness go hand in hand.

Ab toh khush hone se bhi darr lagta hai.

PS: the news was related to my transfer to New Delhi. Main kab se wait kar raha hoon iska. One opportunity seemed to be coming, but meri gali nahi, kisi aur ki. Ab pta ni kab aayegi. :S

A request!

Warning: Read at your own risk!

I've been hearing this from many people these days that I'm a very good person etc etc. This post would hopefully help you somewhat:

In small places like my hometown, a person who consumes alcohol is treated as if he has done one of the biggest crime of this world. Of course, there can be many other activities too, apart from just drinking. And in such a condition, a boy’s parents are also seen as culprits. So the reputation is always at stack. Since the society at such a place takes a lot of interest into other peoples’ lives, therefore, once the reputation is lost, it becomes really very hard to gain it back.

Somebody asked my Papa some days back, “Your son has not been living with you for such a long period now. How can you believe that he has not got himself addicted to bad habits and does not do anything wrong?”

Papa replied, “I trust my son completely. I don’t believe he is like any other son of this town, who would indulge in those wrong deeds.”

When my Ma was explaining this incident to me, I could not feel anything, but guilt. I suddenly found myself falling into a place, where there was a serious dearth of the respect of my parents. Tears started rolling down my cheeks. Of course, I drank for a very less number of times. Of course, they do not know about this yet. But breaking somebody’s trust can result into a punishment for the whole of lifetime. And they are my parents!

Now since you’ve read this post upto this point, that means you seem to bekind of interested in me. I’d like to tell you one thing. Apart from this what I mentioned above, in the past five years, I’ve said a lot of lies to them for a countless number of times, for friends, for many things that I wanted to get etc. They don’t know this, but I’ve broken their trust many times. Something similar can happen with you as well, in fact it might already have happened. I’d really not like this to happen again. So, I request you not to trust me or whatever.

Whatever decision you take, it won’t hurt me now.

Main jaaga! :D

OK. Chalo boht sad ho gaya. Kaafi senti bhi ho liya. Now I should get back to normality..

Mujhe zyada der tak sad rehne ki aadat nai hoti thi. Ek keeda hua karta tha, jo mujhe zyada der sad ni rehne deta tha. Jaise hi sadness strike karti thi, wo poori fight maarta tha aur use happ karta tha aur fir uske saath dhishoom dhishoom khelta tha. Fir saare grieves haar ke bhaag jaate the!

Is baar thoda late ho gaya jaagne mein ye keeda. Thoda rasta kho gaya tha upar aane ka..andar kahin reh gaya tha..isliye! Fir maine aawaaz lagai, aur wo aa gaya baahar..ab sabki watt laga dega jaise hi kisi ne bewajah dimaag kharaab kara toh..hunh!

Yup, I’m back into the form ji! Ab bas dekhte jaao, life kaise mast kar leni hai..
Ab jaag toh gaya hoon..bas pehle jaisa kuch karna hai..kuch kar diya, toh feel hi aa jaani hai! :D

:)

Jaane kyun, dil chaahta hai tu rahe, toh il be alright, il be alright! :)

I was wondering, is it a beginning of the end? Or the beginning of a new start? :-/